The Rose Vine

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HIATUS UNTIL I GET MY OWN COMPUTER. Well sort of. I will post very minimally and will not reply to comments much as I lack my own computer and have to either remain at school or bus to the public library. Kylee isnt happy ab0ut this, but I will make do and think positively until my new laptop loan goes through. Byes!

Saosin - You're Not Alone

( You're Not Alone )
T'is me in a way...

Alright, so I said I was on hiatus but... Yesterday was unofficially, officially graduation day.

It made me glad that I decided to come to Crescent.

And although I hate our education system, although I dislike early mornings, although I fight the good fight against unwarranted disciplinary action from unjustified accusations from unjust (from my perspective) educators, I don't regret coming to Crescent. Not a bit. The unfamiliarity of Crescent has became all too familiar, and I feel that my beloved school has become somewhat like a safety blanket for me.

I never thought I would come to love my school as much as I do. I never thought that'd I'd grow as much as I've grown, that I'd learn as much as I've learnt, that I've seen and understood as much as I have. Crescent has become not just a physical structure, but a place that contains many memories- of hardships, of tough times, of friendships, of fears, of tears and of love. I feel this reluctance to change, to let go of my friends and the things that I have come to know so well here in this school. I feel afraid; to the point that the fear causes a deep pain in my heart, and a uncomfortable churning in my gut to come to the realization that the future has come so swiftly. I wonder if I'm ready. I wonder if I'm even prepared for the O Levels,... for change.

But then I look back. I look back at all the unnecessary (!) and necessary help the people at Crescent have granted me. The shoves, the harshness and the hugs. The lessons, academic or otherwise, that have been imparted. My friends, who have supported me in stupidity and the teachers, while important educators, who are also essentially human. I realise that, yes, I have become someone different from who I was. Yes, this school has become too small for me. Yes, I am ready for change. That while I feel fear and anxiety and pain, I am ready. Ready to grow and learn. I am ready to learn more. To experience the world. I'm excited at what the future holds. I am ready to leave this place and push my boundaries. Ready to test my limits. Ready to mature further and I am willing to learn.

And despite my fear, excitement nearly overcomes me. While I prepare myself for this last hurdle, I also look forward to the future.

So thank you everyone. Thank you, truly, for all you have given me.

I'm updating. I don't feel like saying much, but I feel more like being private now and withdrawing a little bit.

Contact me privately if you want to reach me.

Evaluate me in a meme: +-

Motherfuckers, you did NOT just call my cellphone first thing in the morning with a recording telling me how "violent" and "dangerous" these "illegals" are, and how we have to OMG KEEP THEM OUT OF OUR STATE and this terrible politician (who I am voting for, btw) isn't supporting an anti-immigrant bill, SO YOU SHOULD LIKE, TOTALLY CALL HER AND DRIVE OUT THE BROWN MENACE, OK?

Fucking FreedomsWatch. Just. Fuck you all. Go die. Please.

Anyplace is better
Starting from zero got nothing to lose
Maybe we'll make something
But me myself I got nothing to prove

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so you can fly away
You gotta make a decision
You leave tonight or live and die this way

I feel like there's something about to change, in me. Like this is the step I'm looking for.

Kyrie, she means the world to me, and oh god, everything's happening faster than I can handle it. I love her. I'm sick with love for her, so much that I could care less if I graduate as long as she and I can be together, so much that I just want her here now, get her away from that place she's at. It's never been like this before. My heart's stopped, and I feel like I'm falling into a supernova.

Everything is going so fast.

I want her here. I'd love to provide the life she deserves, I'd love to be her arms wrapped around her at night, I'd love it to be just us.

I don't have the money. Not for my own place at all.

...why do things have to be so god damned confusing.

So Palin can't name any Supreme Court decisions besides Roe v. Wade. The Rules: Post info about ONE Supreme Court decision, modern or historical your lj. (Any decision, as long as it's not Roe v. Wade.) For those who see this on your f-list, take the meme to your OWN lj to spread the fun.

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So the first one in my head was Brown v. Board of Education, but Karnythia said that, as well as the other few I could name off the top of my head. xD (Dred Scott, Plessy, etc.) At any rate, Palin clearly doesn't know (or couldn't cite) Board of Education vs. Pico (1982), as it ruled against book banning. One of the books involved in that case, Go Ask Alice, was one of the same books Palin's church (and her on behalf of them) was trying to get banned fourteen years later.

Well, I am home. Yes.. moved into my new place and slowly but surely unpacking and cleaning and fixing it up. It is by no means perfect, but the place is my own and I am excited to have a lakeside view and my own dishwasher, and a washer dryer in my place. Those things will make my life much easier.

I am enjoying my school schedule, as it gives me three days of tons of free time with plenty of time left over to o homework. (hmm.. maybe I should reverse those.. heh) But, I have found that I am much more suited to living alone than I expected.. I know that I may never be able to live with roommates again since I am spoiled by living alone. I do the things I want to do when I want to do them. I eat any food I want, I can stay up late listening to music, I can wander around and dance crazily and sing like a maniac, I can watch all the sappy movies I want, it is amazing.

Bing alone is also keeping me disciplined. i have to make sure I do the things I need to do right away, such as clean or do homework, run errands. I won’t have someone there to remind me of what has to get done.

But, honestly I love it.

I am in a sad place as far as missing Alaska and all the people and things that I did there. I really want to go back in some ways, even if the end was brutal. But, the happiness I had there is still here within myself, i feel much better as a person, more grown up than before I left.. and I am trying to crack down and get healthy, to be more responsible and save money, I am doing a lot more things now for myself than I'd before I left. so I think I came back from Alaska a much better person.

My schedule is full with school and life, and I was looking forward to this job but they want you to work for 16 hours a week.. I was hoping for ten to twelve only.. so I need to see if there is any way I can drop my hours and still get the job.. but I doubt it. I just REALLY need to focus on school and working a long time each week will eat into my homework time which is allocated now in my free time outside of class, but will be eaten away quickly working four or five days a week. (They say this is required.. and I really don’t know if I can manage that..)

If I am supposed to get the job, I will get it. if not, I have enough money to make things work for a while, and I can find another job. There is just no use freaking out about these types of things.

My schedule

Thursday: School, Kaiwa Table, Jen Avery
Friday: school, Sekai unpacking
Saturday: Homework, Sekai and unpacking
Sunday: Sekai and Unpacking
Monday: Class and Job interview
Tuesday: Meeting, class
Wednesday: Class and more unpacking

 and from here on out it is pretty much school, unpack, homework, eat, sleep and repeat until my house is sparkling.

Not too bad, not bad at all. Kylee is truly a happy girl.

I, brookiki, being of sound mind and pure motives, hereby state that I do take one fayoreix2 as my petite soeur, to be the Bouton of the Rosa Sericea family.

As the symbol of our union, I now present my rosary:



Henceforth shall we be united.

I posted my original application over two years ago and actually gave up on finding a petite soeur for a while. I decided to give it another try and I'm glad I did. I'm very excited about my new petite soeur and I hope I can be an amazing oneesama for her.)

this is how it all started


shopping faux subtitles is so much fun.

we need more lulz in this fandom you guys.

OK I lied about the concert report. But I finally found my camera cord so. Later tonight!

I'm sitting in the Student Union and a guy working in here comes out of the elevator... and it's a guy I went to kindergarten with. xD (And middle school, high school, etc. I'm pretty sure) I didn't even know he went to school here. No, really guys. Like. It still freaks me out every time something like that happens. I dunno. It annoys some people but. I find it kinda comforting that 15 years later we're still in the same school.

Actually now, thinking about it is kind of depressing because I transferred in senior year so doesn't that mean I won't get to go to my original school's reunions? D:

Had a recent group photoshoot, last of its kind for the concert book. We will have another performance for October 6th, for the same company we perform for last. I'm sitting out for this one, though; projects and whatnot defusing my mind - really just can't. I can experience a shut down anytime now, but meh, I refuse.

Rigorous practice for the concert will be everyday starting October 12th. Really need to hand in my assignment way before then, I need to stop multitasking and getting myself too damn distracted. Violin's been alright despite missing one substitute class, though I am in all sorts of wrong with my vocal class. (circumstances hate meh. And I do purely hate that song now.) And basic Chinese and Japanese III exam will be on October as well. I am in for a very rough month. ._.

Anyway, yes, putting off project oh so much right now. Also, I knows I don't gots the time, but found HOL for the time being and hoping to at least do a couple of things before september's done. Cyeah, I'm insane. And I'm insane enough to want a quill and help the house in some way, despite the.. challenged times.

But other than that, I'm pretty much on course with everything. Two days before that and three days before that, hmm hm, uh.huh yep.

CAN. Be. Done.

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Other than that, just read One Piece ch516! 8D +ONE PIECE SPOILER AHEAD+






Lookie, a new character. Who thinks she can be forgiven for anything because. Well, because~



LOL

Leader of the Amazon Lily. Boa Hancock, aka Hebihimesama~ a woman Shichibukai!

And lol, emphasis on kicking a kitten because she can, le daym! xD Was that reaaally necessary? Draws quite a nice picture on her character immediately but lmaowtf Oda. xD EVERYTHING IS FORGIVABLE SIMPLY BECAUSE SHE IS BEAUTIFUL! pssh, ya better recognize That was quite predictable in some odd way. Just a feeling I had, from the way they were going on about forgiveness. Anyway, yeah I just happen to find this randomly entertaining.

And ja, feels like this would awesomely be a Potgas D. Ace rescue arc soon. I could use more Ace, and Shanks for that matter, too. <3 I really want to see the brothers back together again, once Luffy toughs out all these lily amazons, learn their 'haki' or some such and find everyone back. And damn, Luffy is bloody innocent, as are the amazons (._.) but KINTAMA, Golden Balls! lol I can only suspect Oda must be having so much fun with this one. If only Luffy miraculously traded places with Sanji, I can only imagine the mania and/or doom the lovecook'd be in for.

I want to ramble on, still damn bloody excited for the New World bit, these new pirate captains that took the other routes in Grand Line. Daym, daym, daym. <3 Revolutionists, Marines, Shichibukai, Emperors, and all them other upstart tens-of-millions-in-bounty pirates. Just when I thought how can you possibly beat all the things that the Straw Hats had gone through, when Grand Line is already every bit Grand line (already fighting demon-fruit users) before they even enter the New World, I can now suspect political dissension of the highest order would have to have a play in all this, and seeking the lost history and meeting people as strong and notorius as they are that they never had the chance to meet. I'll bite on oda's promise of good story-telling and hope that the New World had something completely different instored. It's already looking great so far, I just can't wait for them to go to the seas ahead. xD

Also caught up with D.Grayman (iz a shipping Allen and Kanda like crazy mad than evarr!), and KHR! (HOMG that iz such a KYUT hedgehog! Hibari and his thing for teh cute. lol And kya kyaa on the KyouyaXHayato close-proximity-despite-unconscious-Hayato call-it-a-favour-but-whatever-cause-I'm-HAPPY-look-it's-a-KyouyaXHayato moment! *sqeuaalge* 8D

And haha. What is with me thinking Tsuna have such pretty awesome eyes being the Tenth? It just seems to me he turned incredibly pretty/sexay lately. Can't stop looking at him now.

Shouldn't really be away for too long. I'll be back when I'm done.

I'm about THIS close to filing a complain about the annoying morons that keep friending me for not apparent reason. I do not know you, I have no interest in common with you, I do not speak Russian, I do not WANT to keep getting spam about being friended. This is annoying and fucking stupid. Get a life. Get some REAL friends and stop harassing people. I -know- I'm not the only one that this is happening to. It's probably the same person doing it too. In the past MONTH
louie_boisseau
morganhutt
mercy_roszko
arturo_scherbin

have added then deleted. It's fucking annoying and I'm 90% sure it's probably the same person doing it.


I'm making this a public entry so you can read this.

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Here is the obligatory "I am back in Washington State" Post. It has to be short, since I am short on time. But, all in all moving sucked, my new place is amazing (save for the HORDES of wolf spiders which are keeping me out of my bedroom at the present time..) and school is amazing. I am going to be busy and I lack my own laptop, but things for now are going great. I have already cried once over Alaska and the people I left behind, but I know I will see everyone again at some time in the future.

More detailed updates to come, I have to do my homework on the computer before I go home.. otherwise it wont get done before the weekend is over.

Jya ne!

Because making icons is much better than building a website for work...

[37] Violinist of Hameln

Teasers:


( Insert violin melody here )

Rosa Carabella family completed on this, the 25th of September, 2008.



This Rosary is a symbol of the bond between myself, sweetthumbelina and obachan_14. May the friendship that binds us together, and the roots of our Rose family- intertwining and connecting the community- continue to grow.

♥ Much happiness!

Full report tomorrow. But. It was amazing. I'm so, so happy that I went.

God it took me forever to get the nerve to post this...


LiveJournal: amongst_thine, nickname Kat; Real name Cassandra

I'm seeking a: An Oneesama, but I'm not closed off to having a Petite Soeur. She'll just have to ping me to the fact first. I'm a bit oblivious.

( Rest of application here~ )


For those who want to speak to me, you can find me most frequently on my AIM name to oppose Eros. And if anyone gets what the name means, they're already a personal favorite. ♥ I don't check my email often, so you're better off sending a PM to my journal if you can't find me.